Magnesium

So after having sleep difficulties and having this craving for chocolate like all day every day I have realised that I must be lacking in magnesium. I have read that magnesium can help you sleep and help with the chocolate cravings if you are lacking in it. So today I am off to the shops to buy some magnesium poweder to see if it makes a difference. I have read about a particularly good one especially for sleep and that is Peter Gillams natural calm. I would really like to purchase this product but it is american so I would need to order it off Amazon and to be honest if I can at least try one here and see if it works then it would save me the hassle of ordering this american one, although this particular one does have rave reviews especially about helping people to sleep. Anyhow, I will try what is here first and if it doesn't help, I will then order the american one.

What else, my weight is back up to where it was before and this is because I have been eating chocolate! that and trying to stick to a specific strict plan I have for myself and its always the way, get me to stick to a plan and I stuff up, don't give me a plan and just say to me to eat healthy then I don't have a problem. It's all these mind games, I find when I am on a plan I just seem to want what I can't have, but then if I don't follow one and have the freedom to eat what I want it all seems to fall into place. After all I am not fat I am a size 8, but I would dearly love to just sort these legs of mine out which just don't seem to happen, even if I train legs like 3 times a week, they still don't get rid of the fat and still don't develop any muscle, and to be honest with my lifestyle I need balance not too much strictness or I fall to bits under all the pressure.

On the boob side of things, very happy with them but it looks like I may have to have more surgery in about 5 months time as I had a blood clot behind the right one and it hasn't formed properly. The surgeon has said he doesn't touch the muscle or the implant so it shouldn't be as painful as having the first lot of surgery, so this is a bit of a bummer, especially as I had this done in November and I am still not allowed to train my upper body yet because of this setback, hence why I am triaining legs and abs all week! Good news is my upper body has not lost any muscle which I am very surprised about but I think this has to do with lifting my kids all the time! Anyway at the moment I have constant DOMS in my legs and abs and just about off to train legs yet again!

WOW

So after 2 days of eating well I am down from 54kg to 52.6kg. WTF!! this is the lightest I have ever been. Can't imagine its water weight as I have been drinking 3 litres. Not too concerned with the scale weight though as in the end its how I look that matters!! I am going to add in an extra meal today so instead of 6 meals it will be 7 but remember these are only mini-meals as I want to make sure I am getting enough calories and I don't want the scale to drop too much!

Went to buy some new bras yesterday and when I got measured up I was quite surprised to find I am a DD. So I have gone from a A cup to a D, DD which I am happy about as I was starting to think maybe I should have gone bigger but no this is the right size for my body, at least the new bras give me a better look than these old grandma type bras I have been wearing since surgery, and don't worry I don't look big.

Haven't been able to train this morning got stuff on with the kiddies so will have to do it tonight regardless of how tired I am feeling. That is the tough bit for me I am not an evening training person, after the days activities with 2 young children I am just worn out, plus this last week I have only had 4 1/2 hours sleep each night due to Bailey waking up, however last night he managed to sleep through, we did dress him a bit different for bed so it has me wondering if perhaps he has been too cold. Will dress him the same tonight, fingers crossed.

Back into it

And tomorrow (Monday) marks day 1, yes another 12 week challenge, its the only way I know how to remain focussed. I need to have plans both training wise and nutritionally and whilst I intend to do it properly I will allow myself 1 day of not worrying, ie I day a week of going out to eat as I did promise myself this year would be the year of not being so strict on myself, but to kick it off and considering I have had a good 7 weeks off training I need to kick start myself by doing this. After the 12 weeks is when the exercise for fun will kick in.

Just about there

I think I am just about there to start doing some light upper body work. I am just about there to start getting back into it.

I had an awesome spin class this morning, mind you I ended up having a bacon and egg roll for lunch and then bought my son an icecream but he didn't want it so I ate it and whilst feeling guilty about eating this sort of food my dad piped up and said I needed it and to go home and have lunch. Don't you love your parents.

Anyhow I think it was because I had breakfast at 5.45 did spin at 8.30 for an hour as it was a longer class and then had nothing to eat. I'm not worried this year is about not over analysing anything!

I'm burnt

Yep got sunburnt bad on my back whilst sitting in the shade whilst the kids played at the park. I didn't think you could get burnt in the shade, but now I know otherwise!!

I trained legs the other day at the gym as that is all I can do at the moment aswell as bike, stepper or powerwalking on treadmill and may I say it is getting very, very boring! I decided to get my program the fitness RX mag that I get free digitally online so it was all about unilateral training, training 1 leg at a time and I used only my bodyweight for most of the exercises as I didn't want to push myself too hard until I get the A ok from the surgeon. Anyhow, I am very surprised that I can hardly walk! my legs and butt are killing me so it just goes to show you can have a very good workout without killing yourself too much! now because I can hardly move though I will have to wait to do another lower body session until Friday.

What else, let me see, I am very tired at the moment. Bailey is getting worse with his waking at night not better so not sure what is going on there but this better not continue for much longer as I can't cope with myself. This has been going on since he was born but its just seems to be getting worse. I am up 3 times most nights so what with trying to get back to sleep in between plus my other child getting up at 5.30am I am simply not getting enough sleep!

Gotta go bubs is screaming, he doesn't seem to be going down.