Feedback needed please

ok so interestingly today I have not followed a particular meal plan and just ate what I wanted when I wanted, went something like this so far (it is now 3pm and won't be eating until dinner)

Breakfast: leftover pork with cauliflower and pumpkin (weird I know)
Morning tea: carmen's museli bar and 2 pieces of fruit toast
Afternoon tea: berries with some greek yoghurt and 1 rice cake

I never usually eat this many carbs but I just want a day where I don't have to worry about following this and that, the thing I need feedback on is after my afternoon tea I have bloated up looking 5 months pregnant and was just wondering if it was the yoghurt or the rice cake, any thoughts?

I feel Fat, Fat, Fat

Hmmm, I know to people at the gym I look slim and to my friends I look slim, but its not all about how you look in clothes.  I certainly do not look good in a bikini and I am really unhappy with the way I look.  It seems no matter how hard I train or how well I eat it just doesn't happen, I then when I do eat really well somehow I end up sneaking in some ice-cream or having a glass of wine and I am not talking huge amounts but just here and there, and I have just reached a point where I just don't know what to do anymore, do I train more, train less, I am so confused now about what to eat and its just getting worse.  I don't know what works for my body at all!