Holy moly

This photo is quite old now.  Jay looks tired and well Bailey is much bigger now.  I think this was taken at the end of January so Bailey was 3 months old.

My chest is sore.  I finished my diet and training with my online trainer and achieved exactly what I wanted to achieve.  I had a lady come up to me this morning in spin saying were you the pregnant one not so long ago to which i replied yes.  She said my god you are so tiny to which I told her that it has been pure hard work to get where I am now.  So i have eased up on the diet and basically as long as eat fairly heathly and balanced I am happy and have devised my own weight training of 3 days weights the other days cardio.  I was missing my cardio with doing weights 6 days a week and with a toddler and a baby I just can't keep going that way as it was making me so tired not to mention that I am always up in the night with Bailey so although I still need to train hard for me it is all about balance.

I still need a boob job!!!!!!!!!

Oh forgot to mention my poor little bub has got 2 teeth.  He turned 5 months 2 days ago and he got 2 teeth at 4 1/2 months.  Talk about early!!!

What else............just had a cup of cocoa for the first time in like 10 years and it hasn't gone down well, got tummy ache now so think I will just stick to a protein shake if I'm hungry after dinner:(

Need some advice..

I need some advice.  My knees seem to be getting worse and worse the more I workout.  I can't run anyway so that doesn't bother me as I can do other cardio and I love rpm.  The issue here is my leg workouts.  I am in fear I will become a cripple.  Is this the end of doing legs with weights?  Do I need to seek other ways of working out like pilates.  I could really do with some advice as I don't want to make my situation worse.

Burgers anyone..

Found this great new burger joint in Subiaco and Hillarys and the burgers are to die for.  When we went to the one in Hillarys a few weeks ago i just had a chicken salad as I am dieting but yesterday I had my cheat meal and had one.  The meat just melts in your mouth and you can actually taste it.  It's not fatty at all and they are just lovely gormet burgers and they don't come with chips unless you order a serve and geez I enjyed every mouthful with a lovely glass of wine.  Jay was in daycare and we took Bailey in the pram who was just happy to sit there and play and watch us eat.  It's funny though, the burger was not huge just average but not small either, actually hard to explain and I didn't feel full after I ate in fact I could have had another:) but I couldn't eat for the rest of the day, just didn't feel like eating and I've also had a funny day eating wise today, not really that hungry.  Oh well.

Rest day tomorrow bring it on.  I think I am just about due for a week off.  I lift 6 days a week with a little cardio and I feel like I am just not gaining anymore strength and it is all getting too hard, so in 3 weeks when I finish this program I think I will take a week off from weights and maybe just walk for cardio.  I am also looking forward to getting back into not so much strict dieting I am getting rather bored of chicken and green beans and don't get me wrong I could have fish or brocoli but at the moment its easy just to chuck some green beans in the microwave steamer for 4 mins.  I run out of time with the baby and toddler and then when they go to bed I don't want to prepare meals I need some time just to sit and gather my thoughts before going to bed rather early as Bailey still gets up a couple of times in the night and I need to get as much sleep as I can.  Yes I am being a princess!!

Still hanging in there..

Yes I am still doing ok.  Training spot on nutrition spot on most of the time.  It has been a trying few weeks.  Bailey keeps getting up a few times in the night and decides its play time so needless to say I am not getting alot of sleep at the moment and we all know what happens if you don't get enough sleep, things tend to slide, food being the first.  I am just so tired all the time and I am finding it hard to actually catch up on sleep.  I am feeling dead.  I am still training only missed 1 session last week and that was because I was up ALL night with Bailey, but it makes me think how much is too much.  Don't get me wrong I love training it makes me feel great and I can see the results and the diet is fine but I much can we push ourselves physically and mentally before we break.  I have only started to think about this the last few days after much sleep deprivation.  Sleep fixes everything or breaks everything.  That is why sometimes my nutrition is not spot on.  Not eating junk just not always eating what is on the plan or sometimes it can be missing meals.  I think 95% of the time I am doing ok.

Sent through my updated pics and according to Tony I am doing great so I guess no need to worry.  I am giving myself 12 weeks and I think I have 4 weeks to go.  After that I am on my own which is fine with me, I could only afford to do 12 weeks to kickstart me after having bubs.  At least I can fit into most of my old clothes.

Anyway I think I better go bubs has just gone down for a nap which means I want to try and get 30mins of zzzz's.

Going well

Things are going well.  I love having an online trainer who gives me different workouts each day it stops me having to figure out what I need to do.  I am getting stronger and can see a change in my body.  6 weeks down 6 weeks to go.  I have been good most of the time.  I am allowing myself a cheat meal once a week but i must admit we went to a bbq last weekend and I had 4 wines aswell but I am ok with this.

It is Jay's 2nd birthday on Thursday so we are having a party for him on Sunday.  Should be good but I have so much to organise!!

In regards to Bailey I think I am going to start him on rice cereal.  He is only 15 weeks old but is waking twice a night for a feed and just seems so hungry at night so will give him a little and his bottle before he goes to bed to see if that makes a difference.

Tired, Tired, Tired

Yep in a nutshell that is me.  I think it is the weather, and the fact the gym doesn't cope well in the warm weather and its so hot in there, even though they have the air-con on its not exactly cold when you walk in.  Eating has been good except for last night, being Australia Day we went over the mum and dad's to take the kids for a swim and i ended up having a small porting of cannelloni with salad and 4 drinks!!! oh and an ice-cream.  Don't know what came over me but this will be my cheat meal for the week.  I think it was a bit more than a cheat meal but I can't take it back.

I am starting to struggle food wise, I think its because I am not making my food very interesting and it lacks flavour, but with a baby and a young toddler I really don't have time to spend cooking on myself and at the moment I am cooking for me and something different for hubby and son.  By the time the end of the day comes around I do need an hour or so just to myself without running around doing chores.  As it is most nights I am in bed by 9.00pm just so I get enough sleep to take me through the next day.

Training is going really well and I have noticed my body has come along way in 4 weeks.  I can fit back into my size 8 shorts.  They are certainly not loose on me but they fit.  I just got to keep focussed for another few weeks.

AAARRGGGH I had chocolate

Oh my god I was like a woman possessed.  I was going to kill someone if I didn't have chocolate.  Now I have no idea what came over me.  The only thing I can think of was I have been 100% for 3 weeks now.  No cheating, no craving nothing.  Yesterday I just gagged on all my food.  I didn't want it, and I didn't like it.  Anyhow I had chocolate.  I feel guilty and I hope it hasn't affected my weight loss too bad.  I feel bad this morning as it has made me wake up with a headache, toilet issues and I just feel blah.  That will teach me.  Anyhow the good thing is I am looking forward to getting on the bandwagon this morning.  At least the positive thing I can find is it was just one meal I slipped up on the rest were good.  I am human, I am very tired and I am training my guts out plus looking after a baby and a toddler under 2 so I have to realise this and give myself some slack.  Once I have achieved my goal I certainly won't be killing myself like I am now and will come to a happy medium with eating and exercise, after all I do want to be able to have a wine when I want it.