Feedback needed please

ok so interestingly today I have not followed a particular meal plan and just ate what I wanted when I wanted, went something like this so far (it is now 3pm and won't be eating until dinner)

Breakfast: leftover pork with cauliflower and pumpkin (weird I know)
Morning tea: carmen's museli bar and 2 pieces of fruit toast
Afternoon tea: berries with some greek yoghurt and 1 rice cake

I never usually eat this many carbs but I just want a day where I don't have to worry about following this and that, the thing I need feedback on is after my afternoon tea I have bloated up looking 5 months pregnant and was just wondering if it was the yoghurt or the rice cake, any thoughts?

I feel Fat, Fat, Fat

Hmmm, I know to people at the gym I look slim and to my friends I look slim, but its not all about how you look in clothes.  I certainly do not look good in a bikini and I am really unhappy with the way I look.  It seems no matter how hard I train or how well I eat it just doesn't happen, I then when I do eat really well somehow I end up sneaking in some ice-cream or having a glass of wine and I am not talking huge amounts but just here and there, and I have just reached a point where I just don't know what to do anymore, do I train more, train less, I am so confused now about what to eat and its just getting worse.  I don't know what works for my body at all!

Sick, Sick, Sick

So I had laryngitis for a week then was just getting better and it turned into a stinking cold.  Did the right thing for a change and missed the gym for a week as I felt like complete crap, then this week have headed back but with this stinking cold I am thinking of giving it a miss today, what with the 2 kids to look after and amongst all the house hold chores sometimes its just a bit too much.  So it has now been 2 weeks I have been sick for straight and I am hoping to get better soon!

On other news we have a new puppy.  He is so cute, but don't know if we have done the right or wrong thing, its just extra work on top of an already busy schedule and of course I have to constantly watch the kids with him as they are a bit nasty with him at the moment.  We have had him for 3 weeks, he is still not getting this whole toilet training thing so we will see how we go.  I would hate to get rid of him especially as each day is getting better but we will wait and see.

Gosh has it been that long

I can't believe its been so long since i posted.  Well I was going great with the primal blueprint and lost 2 kilos, my stomach was flatter and I felt great and even got comments at the gyms about my abs but somewhere along the line I got lost and started to listen too much to people who are negative about this way of living and fell back into the convential way of living again, not that I do each much carbs or grains but none the less it comes down to just reading too much, gaining too much knowledge and not sticking with one way of eating, chopping and changing my ideas of what I believe the right and wrong way to eat is. So without even being bad on my diet I have gained back the 2 kgs nearly 3kg in fact and I am just getting sick and tired of having what I call too much knowledge.  Going back 10 years ago when I didn't worry so much about my diet and ate healthy but what I wanted as I didn't worry about the protein, carb, fat ratio, I was slim and lean so it really bugs me that I am constantly thinking about what I am eating and whether its right or wrong,  Somewhere along the line I got caught up too much about food and I just can't seem to let this obsession go.  Maybe it has something to do with getting older and having to work even harder at it.  Don't know, but anyhow the same goes with the gym and I have decided in the next week or so I am going to change my program around and do something I have never done and that is whole body training, so instead of one body part per day I am going to do the whole body 2 days a week and one core session once a week and the rest cardio.  I do feel I am burnt out, but want to keep exercising but just want to do something a bit different.  I am also going to write out a plan so I can stick to it without having to make it hard or worry about what I eat, and then in a few months time I am going to go back to the primal way of eating again.  I can't wait to get my primal cook book!

Not much

to report that is.  Primal is going ok although I am still having my chocolate here and there and the last couple of weeks I have been having a drink here and there so imagine what I could achieve if I just cut those small things out!:)  I have had a few comments, one from the owner at the gym who said how slim I was, another from a girl at the gym who came up to me and mentioned my abs and also said how she overheard these 4 guys talking about my abs, and I'm like WHAT ABS?  so critical of myself, and then my brother mentioned how I looked like skin and bones and needed a good feed.  Now I can tell you I don't look skinny at all and I certainly don't look good in a bikini, same old trouble spots butt and thighs, but I must admit primal is certainly agreeing with my abs.  I just need to tighten the diet up a bit more I must admit I have been boredom eating the last few days and the kids have been stressing me out, aswell as getting up in the night so this combined with being tired = boredom eating, but hey as I have mentioned heaps of time this is a lifestyle for me.  I am not training for a comp and so if I slip up here and there well that is life.  Take today for instance I did really want to train, but hubby was working all day, and being a public holiday the gym creche was closed.  I could have gone for a walk but my 3 year old does not really like being in the pram for an hour so its just not worth all the drama.  The plan was to do a workout at home tonight, but both my babies were tired and grizzly and then my 3 year old basically knocked himself out on the wall so by the time they went to bed the last thing I wanted to do was work out.  Very rarely do I miss a session, but I have decided life throws these little curve balls at you and I am sick and tired of burning myself out and training some days when its just the last thing I want to do.  Next week I am going to start doing Turbulence Training again.  I like the concept and it also makes it easier to train at home if I can't get to the gym!:)

Interesting

So its interesting to learn that I have been on the primal blueprint lifestyle for 2 weeks now and have been about 80% compliant.  This takes into account a few wines during the week.  Now yesterday I had mum and dad over for breakfast and made bircher muesli and I had about 1/2 cup and also had some chocolate during the day.  What happened?  It send me up for hunger, cravings and I also woke up with a massive headache today.  Now apart from yesterday for the 2 weeks I have been primal I have been feeling fantastic, have so much energy, I am at my lowest weight ever, my stomach has gone flat and I have even had some positive comments at the gym, all in less than 2 weeks.  It is definatley working for me and I love the fact I am not getting hungry and I can take it or leave it for food and I am completely satisfied.  This is a lifestyle I will be sticking to and it is so damn easy.  I don't feel at all deprived and I don't have to worry if I eat or not.

Anyway its 10.45 and I am still in my PJ's.  Not sure if I will work out today or not.  I should but my body is telling me not to with my headache.  Usually I listen to my head but with this new lifestyle I am starting to listen to my body.  Hubby has gone back to bed he still has a bad ear infection from Broome over 2 weeks ago so that is part of the reason I haven't been to the gym and I can't workout tonight as we are going to a bbq at 4pm, so I either need to get my butt in gear and workout from home or just have another rest day.

I work again tomorrow and finish at 12.30pm and then I am getting my hair coloured.  Hubby can do the food shopping for me and the kids are in daycare so I will probably go to the gym at 6am tomorrow.

I'm back!

So I had a brilliant holiday away.  It was extremely hot so we didn't really do much other than take the kids swimming and going out for lunch, we did do a few things like check out chinatown, the japanese cemetary, the wharf, driving around, the mango place, matso's brewery but really it was just too warm to keep taking the kids out.

It was good to get out of the routine and I did no training while I was away and because of that didn't really eat much at all, other than brekkie, lots of fruit and mainly salads when we went out.  A couple of beers here and there and I didn't put on any weight.

I did read an awesome book though, the Primal Blueprint and I thoroughly recommend this to anyone.  It has completly changed my way of thinking about how I eat and excercise.  I started this new way of living on Monday and have already lost a kilo and just like the book says it was effortless.  It's very similiar to the paleo diet and for me the biggest challenge is getting my head around eating full fat this and that but I have been and its nice not to have to think about eating or when I am going to eat and most days I only need 3 meals a day which is huge when you consider I used to "HAVE" to eat 6 times a day.  I kind of feel liberated.  I wasn't sure it was going to work but it does and it fits in nicely with my family.  I haven't had any cravings, haven't been hungry, have been energised for my workouts and if I am not hungry I "DON'T" have to eat! Anyway check it out for yourselves.  I went out for lunch today and ordered some lemon pesto prawns with salad and I didn't have to worry that it was cooked in butter as that is ok on this program, besides it wasn't like it was dripping with butter!