2 more sleeps

Until we are off and away! Am so looking forward to not being in a routine and actually taking time off training for a week. I think most of the holiday will involve taking the kiddies swimming:)

On another note we have put our house up for sale and have bought another one (only if our house sells), talk about being spontaneous! but that is what we tend to do, stay in a house for a little while and if something better comes up bingo we move again. Sorry I don't mean better but I guess the last few years have involved having babies and your needs tend to change a bit. We lasted 9 months in our previous house and then when Jay was born it was just too small so we bought this one, then in no time Bailey came along and we have now discovered we would like a pool and we really need a 4th bedroom so we can use it as a toy room. Toys just seem to take over the whole house. Anyway not sure if we are doing the right thing but lets just say fate will tell.

Bloated

So something has made me look 5 months pregnant and I can probably guess what it is:

M1: oats & eggwhites with flax oil

Post workout shake - protein powder with water

M2: salad made with chicken, beetroot, spinach leaves, fetta and chick peas

M3: bubble tea

M4: fish, brocolli puree, salad as per above

It has to be the bubble tea, although the chick peas could have had something to do with it but I had the bubble tea around 2.30pm and was bloated about 4pm, if it was the chickpeas I think it would have happened sooner. Apart from the bubble tea food was good today but looking at it I don't think if I added up all the calories it would be over what I am supposed to be having as I missed a couple of meals.

On another note am off to Broome next Sunday and I cannot wait.

YEEEHAH

I can start training upper body again! I am so excited it was getting really boring just being able to train abs and legs and even though these are the areas that need the most work I think I was just getting very fatigued. We all need to do different things at the gym to keep us inspired and motivated and I can't wait to be able to start again. Even though it will be baby weights to begin with I can start to vary my training again. One happy camper!

Training

Can't wait until I can start training my upper body again. It has been 3 months and I am getting rather sick and tired of training legs and abs. Don't get me wrong they need to be trained well as that is where I hold most of my fat but in regards to enjoying training it is getting rather boring and having that constant DOMS feeling in my abs and legs is rather annoying. I visit the surgeon next week and I am going to beg him to let me start training my upper body even if its just baby weights I don't care! The surprising thing is my upper body hasn't changed much, I still have a v taper in my back, but I just want to feel like I am training properly again!

Magnesium

So after having sleep difficulties and having this craving for chocolate like all day every day I have realised that I must be lacking in magnesium. I have read that magnesium can help you sleep and help with the chocolate cravings if you are lacking in it. So today I am off to the shops to buy some magnesium poweder to see if it makes a difference. I have read about a particularly good one especially for sleep and that is Peter Gillams natural calm. I would really like to purchase this product but it is american so I would need to order it off Amazon and to be honest if I can at least try one here and see if it works then it would save me the hassle of ordering this american one, although this particular one does have rave reviews especially about helping people to sleep. Anyhow, I will try what is here first and if it doesn't help, I will then order the american one.

What else, my weight is back up to where it was before and this is because I have been eating chocolate! that and trying to stick to a specific strict plan I have for myself and its always the way, get me to stick to a plan and I stuff up, don't give me a plan and just say to me to eat healthy then I don't have a problem. It's all these mind games, I find when I am on a plan I just seem to want what I can't have, but then if I don't follow one and have the freedom to eat what I want it all seems to fall into place. After all I am not fat I am a size 8, but I would dearly love to just sort these legs of mine out which just don't seem to happen, even if I train legs like 3 times a week, they still don't get rid of the fat and still don't develop any muscle, and to be honest with my lifestyle I need balance not too much strictness or I fall to bits under all the pressure.

On the boob side of things, very happy with them but it looks like I may have to have more surgery in about 5 months time as I had a blood clot behind the right one and it hasn't formed properly. The surgeon has said he doesn't touch the muscle or the implant so it shouldn't be as painful as having the first lot of surgery, so this is a bit of a bummer, especially as I had this done in November and I am still not allowed to train my upper body yet because of this setback, hence why I am triaining legs and abs all week! Good news is my upper body has not lost any muscle which I am very surprised about but I think this has to do with lifting my kids all the time! Anyway at the moment I have constant DOMS in my legs and abs and just about off to train legs yet again!

WOW

So after 2 days of eating well I am down from 54kg to 52.6kg. WTF!! this is the lightest I have ever been. Can't imagine its water weight as I have been drinking 3 litres. Not too concerned with the scale weight though as in the end its how I look that matters!! I am going to add in an extra meal today so instead of 6 meals it will be 7 but remember these are only mini-meals as I want to make sure I am getting enough calories and I don't want the scale to drop too much!

Went to buy some new bras yesterday and when I got measured up I was quite surprised to find I am a DD. So I have gone from a A cup to a D, DD which I am happy about as I was starting to think maybe I should have gone bigger but no this is the right size for my body, at least the new bras give me a better look than these old grandma type bras I have been wearing since surgery, and don't worry I don't look big.

Haven't been able to train this morning got stuff on with the kiddies so will have to do it tonight regardless of how tired I am feeling. That is the tough bit for me I am not an evening training person, after the days activities with 2 young children I am just worn out, plus this last week I have only had 4 1/2 hours sleep each night due to Bailey waking up, however last night he managed to sleep through, we did dress him a bit different for bed so it has me wondering if perhaps he has been too cold. Will dress him the same tonight, fingers crossed.

Back into it

And tomorrow (Monday) marks day 1, yes another 12 week challenge, its the only way I know how to remain focussed. I need to have plans both training wise and nutritionally and whilst I intend to do it properly I will allow myself 1 day of not worrying, ie I day a week of going out to eat as I did promise myself this year would be the year of not being so strict on myself, but to kick it off and considering I have had a good 7 weeks off training I need to kick start myself by doing this. After the 12 weeks is when the exercise for fun will kick in.